Starts the same as any other day. Breakfast, coffee, lots of water, eat small bits all day. Things seem to be going well. Paulee comes over with Carys. Have not seen them in ages. Nancy also comes over for a visit. She has been in Montreal for a wedding. Paulee has a lot of questions, [...]

This has been a good day, though I barely slept last night. Tossed and turned with a way over imaginative brain keeping me awake and tortured with insane thoughts. Watched TV for a bit at 2AM. As usual nothing of consequence showing. Finally went back to bed around 3AM and fell asleep. Drinking all this [...]

I am feeling fine, emotional, but basically fine. Janet goes to her Pilates club. I pack the car, run a couple of errands and pick her up. I pack my own lunch even though Heather is a great cook. But my diet is so restricted that Janet suggests we take leftovers for me We go [...]

Now what? We are in a bit of a stupor. We start calling everyone to let them know what is going on. We do not want any surprises. It is not easy. A number of people are in shock and have trouble with what they are hearing. Everyone is very supportive. I talk with Fo’ad. [...]

Another big day. This will tell all. Can’t have coffee or muffins or anything. Fuck! We show up at the hospital, but I have forgotten my paper work, Janet goes home to get it. I wait for the Technologist to show up and process us. There are very few people waiting. Turns out I do [...]

Go see clients. Trying very hard to make things appear normal. Everyone remarks on the amount of weight I have lost. Lisa tells me I should wear clothes that fit better so it won’t show as much. I tell Yama about where we stand. Then Jacquie remarks on my weight loss, and I have to [...]

Big day. Can’t sleep. Obviously tense. Go see Doctor Ruth at 12:30. Janet accompanies me. Doctor Ruth is a LOT more serious than I have ever seen her. Her smile is a bit terse and we get down to business. Dates and events gain a new importance. She is asking a lot of questions trying [...]

Nothing but confusion. Let’s not get ahead of ourselves. Wait for Tuesday. Relax. Can’t. Very emotional. Damn Anti-biotics. I would be emotional anyways, but this makes things so much worse. Have dinner with Judy and Arlin. Janet makes me promise to tell them. They are very supportive and concerned and all the stuff in between [...]

Doctor Ruth calls with the results of the CT Scan. It is not good. No mention of Diverticulitis anymore. Spots of the liver which should not be there. Do I have a temperature? No. Are you sure? I tell her about the growth in my sternum. She is calm. We make an appointment for July [...]

Drive Janet to Dorval airport, or Trudeau Airport as it is called now. We have a cup of coffee together. Trip was much shorter than expected. I leave around 11:30 to drive back to Toronto, this time taking the highway. The drive is uneventful. I am feeling fine, arriving home at 5:30 which is when [...]