This is not for the squeamish.
You know somewhere in the back of your mind, the question. You know the question,  don’t you?
What happens if the bag comes off while you are sleeping?
Janet and I have laughed nervously about this possibility. We imagined waking up in the middle of the night to change the sheets, shower, [...]

I am often asked if people can visit. The answer is always the same, call me before you leave home to make sure I am OK. Don’t call me the day before because I will not know how I will be doing the next day. And even then, there will be surprises. Visits are also [...]

It is difficult to know what is your worst enemy. Somehow the all seem to be tied in to each other in a big conspiracy.
Sleep deprivation is probably the worst offender. It leaves you defenseless against anything else.
Anxiety comes a number of sources, the most likely of which is lack of knowledge.
Depression, well I don’t [...]

I came  up with an interesting concept last week. Guilt Free Sleep.
We have been conditioned to sleep at night. We feel guilty if we don’t. We feel as if we have not slept after a restless night. I am not sure why this is. But a lot of people have trouble sleeping at night. You [...]

The night before chemo, and the emotions are running amok. Not much to be done but try to keep them in check and move forward.
I have decided to give up on the sleep problem. I will sleep whenever the urge hits. That is all there is to do. No guilt, and no attempt to sleep [...]

Sunday night had the predictable sleep schedule. There was a slight variation. I drove Janet to work, then went back to bed. We have an appointment with the surgeon, Dr. Kennedy at 3PM for a look see at various things. I still don’t know how they can tell whether the insides are healing or not.
I [...]

I have to get a belt in which to carry this stupid baby bottle. You keep forgetting that you are attached and walk away only to have the bottle dangle. Nothing happens, everything is taped to my hairy chest. That is the part the nurses enjoy the most. They make sure the tape is applied [...]