I found myself being really short tempered for a couple of weeks. It seemed to pass once the Neulasta kicked in. Maybe there was a connection?
The effects of life on the brain and emotions is staggering. I am not sure if those are the right expressions, but it seems you sometimes have little control for [...]

Monday, Nov 23
Had an appointment to see the surgeon, Dr. Erin Kennedy. She was ecstatic. Have never seen her so amazingly cheerful. You look great she says. Have you seen your CT Scan report? Yes, we say, met with Dr. Hedley. Don’t pay any attention to it, she says. The increased size of the tumours [...]

This is a turning point in the Art Therapy blog posting. I was expecting this to happen. The only unfortunate part is that the objections have come form people who have not read the blog.
The sessions are a safe place where people are encouraged to speak their mind. Someone taking notes might appear intrusive. I [...]

avastin, avastin
what art thou
you come in a plastic bag
invading my heart
poisoning my body
weakening my spirit
racing through my body
wrecking ball that you are
stopping blood vessels from forming
killing cancer cells
yet here we are
eight days later
reeling from your invasion
exhausted from your tentacles
sleeping or awake
not feeling like much
going through the motions
dealing with your pain
avastin, avastin
what art thou

I am sorry to report right from the start, that I did not take pictures. I am disappointed. The opportunity almost presented itself, but I was not able to explain why I wanted to take them. More on that further down.
The mood in the room was light and very positive. Only three others showed up, [...]

Went to see the oncologist yesterday with mixed results.
The last CT Scan we did was at the end of July, before the full diagnosis, and before the operation, and before the chemo, and just plain before.
Monday’s CT Scan revealed more cancer tumours and activities. This is to be expected. No treatments results in very active [...]

Surprise! We get Avastin today. Dr. Hedley feels that enough time has gone by for me to have healed. Damn the creation of blood vessels. Full steam ahead.
We searched the web for the side effects of Avastin. It includes just about anything that is not included with the other drugs. name it, and it is [...]

We had Art Therapy today. Must be Wednesday.
Three people from last week did not show up, two new people showed up. Except they are not new since the moderator and one of the participants know them. Hey, how are you, long time. And so on. This is a safe place after all. Five women and [...]

Every once in a while, you wake up in the morning expecting this to be a nasty dream. But there is this bag thingy hanging off your stomach to remind you of the stark reality.
We, Janet and I, have this dream often, except she has it without the bag being on her. We remind ourselves [...]

One of the recurring themes is where my inner strength to cope with this is coming from. It is a good question, the answer to which has eluded me.
I attended a Relaxation and Visualisation session at Wellspring this afternoon. There were six of us in the room at various stages of the journey. The session [...]