Every once in a while, you wake up in the morning expecting this to be a nasty dream. But there is this bag thingy hanging off your stomach to remind you of the stark reality. We, Janet and I, have this dream often, except she has it without the bag being on her. We remind [...]
Oct 292009
Oct 282009
I am often asked if people can visit. The answer is always the same, call me before you leave home to make sure I am OK. Don’t call me the day before because I will not know how I will be doing the next day. And even then, there will be surprises. Visits are also [...]
Oct 262009
It is difficult to know what is your worst enemy. Somehow the all seem to be tied in to each other in a big conspiracy. Sleep deprivation is probably the worst offender. It leaves you defenseless against anything else. Anxiety comes a number of sources, the most likely of which is lack of knowledge. Depression, [...]
Oct 252009
I came up with an interesting concept last week. Guilt Free Sleep. We have been conditioned to sleep at night. We feel guilty if we don’t. We feel as if we have not slept after a restless night. I am not sure why this is. But a lot of people have trouble sleeping at night. [...]
Oct 232009
One of the recurring themes is where my inner strength to cope with this is coming from. It is a good question, the answer to which has eluded me. I attended a Relaxation and Visualisation session at Wellspring this afternoon. There were six of us in the room at various stages of the journey. The [...]
Oct 222009
I apologise for this entry, but I do not seem to be able to let go of this thought. Maybe because I have not found a satisfactory solution to it. This entry can be blamed on Lelsie who engaged me in a wide ranging and rambling discussion while I was trying to sleep. The trouble [...]
Oct 222009
The jury is out on the sleep resolution taken last night. Having said that, I slept quite well, if sporadically. But in the new spirit of any sleep is a good sleep, I accepted the vagaries of the night and woke up at some point in the morning in fine spirits. This boded well for [...]
Oct 222009
The night before chemo, and the emotions are running amok. Not much to be done but try to keep them in check and move forward. I have decided to give up on the sleep problem. I will sleep whenever the urge hits. That is all there is to do. No guilt, and no attempt to [...]
Oct 202009
Margaret Wente wrote a charming article in the Globe & Mail on the subject of breast cancer. More to the point, on fighting, conquering and surviving cancer. I have already made my opinions known on this topic, and this article only confirms me in what I wrote. Breast Cancer is a very physical presentation of [...]
Oct 202009
Sunday night had the predictable sleep schedule. There was a slight variation. I drove Janet to work, then went back to bed. We have an appointment with the surgeon, Dr. Kennedy at 3PM for a look see at various things. I still don’t know how they can tell whether the insides are healing or not. [...]
