Today was a day of staying home taking stock of the body. As I said earlier, everything has a new meaning. Are those stomach cramps? Or just gas? Am I having diarrhea? Or headed for constipation? While these sound like diametrically opposite directions, it is really hard to tell at times. I barely slept last [...]

I am a Baha’i. Not as active as I could be but a Baha’ i nonetheless. As such, we believe in God, and prayers. I wrote my brother at some point saying that I do fnd it peculiar that we take solace in praying to God for healing and protection when He is the one [...]

We showed up at 2:30 to a roomful of people waiting. Turns out that they had 120 people in for treatments as opposed to the usual number which is a lot lower. Interestingly, they provide you with pagers if you want to go for a walk or something. We were called in around 4, and [...]

I dislike the term Cancer survivor. I know I am going against the grain here. But it sounds so defeatist. You survived. And what happens when the cancer returns? You have to come to terms with it again, at the end of which, you will again claim survival. We survive tsunamis, and while cancer can [...]

My opiate naive body reacts to yet another drug. Half a pill is all I am supposed to take, and it is all I took. About an hour before going to sleep. I decided to also listen to Jacquie Gardner’s meditation CD on mindful breathing. It helped me a lot in the hospital. My leg [...]

The charming Dr. David Hedley is so reassuring and positive. We were there last Wednesday to see when the chemo would start. It is official, it starts tomorrow. Every one is so supportive. But truth be told, no one really knows what to expect. Everyone is different, and reacts differently. I guess future posts will [...]

Wake up on Saturday morning feeling quite well in spite of the excesses of the previous night. We decide to go to the market. Janet goes to her pilates class first. I drive. We arrive at the market. Put in coins for an hour. Normally ample time to get all our shopping done with time [...]

The most oft asked question. Whether in person, or eMail, or whatever. I cannot make a move in the house without the question being asked. I don’t even have to move off the couch. Just lie there and change my position, or close my eyes, and the question is popped. I get off the couch [...]

I was on my way to the bedroom, and stopped to say so to Janet who was watching her favourite soap on the TV. The Young and the Restless. You can all call and make fun of her later. Victor, who must now be close to 195 years old, was lying in a hospital bed [...]