avastin, avastin what art thou you come in a plastic bag invading my heart poisoning my body weakening my spirit racing through my body wrecking ball that you are stopping blood vessels from forming killing cancer cells yet here we are eight days later reeling from your invasion exhausted from your tentacles sleeping or awake [...]
Nov 212009
Nov 192009
I am sorry to report right from the start, that I did not take pictures. I am disappointed. The opportunity almost presented itself, but I was not able to explain why I wanted to take them. More on that further down. The mood in the room was light and very positive. Only three others showed [...]
Nov 192009
Went to see the oncologist yesterday with mixed results. The last CT Scan we did was at the end of July, before the full diagnosis, and before the operation, and before the chemo, and just plain before. Monday’s CT Scan revealed more cancer tumours and activities. This is to be expected. No treatments results in [...]
Nov 172009
Last Thursday was the start of chemo week. Avastin was added to the mix. Another unknown, and as you all know by now, I am not a big fan if unknowns of this kind. My brother and his wife left on Monday morning. My sister had come for the day on Sunday and left that [...]
Nov 152009
Fear is so debilitating. Most are such a waste of emotions. Not having fear would ruin a good horror movie, mind. The static pages section on the right has a list of over 600 fears and their scientific terms. 600! The title of this post is fear of death and I hope the conversation leads [...]
Nov 152009
This has been a recurring theme. It is fitting that it should be addressed in its very own post. What honour. Life has changed to the point that the future has little meaning. People are always telling me that we do not know when we are going to die. This should make it easier to [...]
Nov 132009
We went to Honduras in 2003 with some of our friends. Rented a couple of houses in Roatan Island and spent Christmas together. Janet and I got there about three days after everyone else. They spent some time on the mainland. We had to stay home for some reason, maybe to spend Christmas with the [...]
Nov 122009
Surprise! We get Avastin today. Dr. Hedley feels that enough time has gone by for me to have healed. Damn the creation of blood vessels. Full steam ahead. We searched the web for the side effects of Avastin. It includes just about anything that is not included with the other drugs. name it, and it [...]
Nov 112009
We had Art Therapy today. Must be Wednesday. Three people from last week did not show up, two new people showed up. Except they are not new since the moderator and one of the participants know them. Hey, how are you, long time. And so on. This is a safe place after all. Five women [...]
Nov 102009
I am not going to do blood work tomorrow morning. I will instead go on Thursday morning. Chemo is set for noon on Thursday. Doing the blood work in the morning will mean that they will have the results by 11:00. I will have to call them then to see if the blood cell count [...]
