How exciting is that? The Montreal Canadians were not supposed to even be in the playoffs, and here they are in a Game Seven against the best team in the league. Just goes to show how much passion and want play in overcoming challenges.

And so it goes with me. I have to use these people as inspiration. For inspiration is what drives us to excel, overcome trials and tribulations. We move from one day to the next, oblivious to what is around the corner. Almost as if in a daze, but not quite. Some more aware than others. We move in a dance with time, rarely challenged to rise above. Always making sure we survive to see another day.

A chronic conditions is supposed to serve as a wake up call. A call to action. Get up, do something, create a legacy, you do not have much time left. Not that we know exactly how much there is in the trough of life. The pressure is there nonetheless.

The problem is that while the pressure is there, the energy is lacking. Everyday brings a new adventure, a new discovery. We moved up the chemo day to free up the weekends. Two fewer days to recover from the previous chemo session. We figure that is why I am so tired. I cannot help but feel there’s more to it than that. Just two fewer days cannot result in this level of exhaustion. I mentioned in one of my previous posts how cheated I feel when my good days do not turn out as planned. This week is turning into one of those. I should not complain. I am getting a lot done in spite of everything. Just that I need to rest every so often, too often, to recoup some level of energy.

I watched the whole hockey game last night. That was a major feat. Not that I go to sleep early, just go to bed early to get away from the noise and hustle and bustle of life, such as it is. Last night was different. The Canadiens had lost a previous game when they had led 4-1 going into the third period. Here they were leading 3-0 and only 10 long minutes left in the game. They won, glory be. I love the playoffs. Such a do or die scenario. The level of the game rises to new heights, or lows if you happen to be the Washington Capitals.

Exhaustion be damned. Watch the whole thing and pay the price for it in the morning.

This too shall pass. Another week will come and the energy will be restored. Nothing to do with hospitals this week. Chemo next Tuesday.

We are going out of town this weekend. To a farm generously lent us by Heather and Neil Fraser. This will be the first out of town trip in 11 months. I am excited beyond description. Does not matter what happens. Exhausted or fine, just getting out of town is going to be amazing. I am planning all kinds of things to do there, including, of course, taking pictures. See where that goes.

The Frasers rent some of the farm to a local farmer who has some cows. Cows have calves. calves get eaten by coyotes. The calves are kept indoors to prevent that. Look forward to seeing the calves. Would love to get a picture of a coyote. We will see what dusk brings.

Thanks for listening.

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